I had a Ctrl-Z moment today. I made a mistake and so wished I could press Ctrl-Z and go back to before it happened and not do it, or act differently instead. My computer/Guardian angel had even tried to stop me but I ignored the signs and did it any way. Now I am at the stage, having apologised to the one I offended, of trying not to let my mind be consumed by guilt. I did it. I apologised. I shall not do it again. And in future I shall listen and watch more carefully for the signs from the Universe and take notice.
As a child I was very shy and permanently terrified of making mistakes. The embarrassment of looking stupid was more than I could bear and to be avoided at all costs. I have the feeling that I am now making up for it by making a lot of mistakes and learning at last to cope, learn and move on. It’s not easy though. Andrew Norriss has written a book called Ctrl-Z which is about making mistakes and the gold to be found in them. Perhaps if I had read it as a child I would have lived a more adventurous life, made lots of mistakes and not have to be making so many now. Lucky the children who get to read Ctrl-Z when it comes out 5th March 2009. It may save them a lot of pain and give them a jolly good read too.
As a child I was very shy and permanently terrified of making mistakes. The embarrassment of looking stupid was more than I could bear and to be avoided at all costs. I have the feeling that I am now making up for it by making a lot of mistakes and learning at last to cope, learn and move on. It’s not easy though. Andrew Norriss has written a book called Ctrl-Z which is about making mistakes and the gold to be found in them. Perhaps if I had read it as a child I would have lived a more adventurous life, made lots of mistakes and not have to be making so many now. Lucky the children who get to read Ctrl-Z when it comes out 5th March 2009. It may save them a lot of pain and give them a jolly good read too.
